PASSED

I LOOKED AT MY WIFES FACE AS SHE LAY THERE..

SHE LOOKED BETTER WITH THOSE WHITE SHEETS AROUND HER.

LIKE SOME DREAM OF A PRINCESS SLEEPING IN PEACE..

I DREAMT OF THE DAY, SHE WOULD AWAKEN.

DROWSY WITH THE FEELING OF CONTENT..

FOR I KNEW I’LL BE HERE AND SEE HER THROUGH..

I’D BE THE HERO SHE WAITED TO SEE..

I WAS THE ONE ALL ALONG AND SHE’LL BE WITH ME.

AS DAYS GO BY SHE LOSES HER BEAUTY,

MY BELOVED IS DEAD MY ONLY DEITY .

THEY EAT HER FLESH FROM THE INSIDE OUT,

AS I HELD HER CLOSE WITHOUT A DOUBT..

I AM STILL HOPING SHE’LL AWAKEN,

THOUGH DARK I KNOW THIS PATH I HAVE TAKEN..

SO HERE IN MY CASTLE THAT’S NOW OUR TOMB..

I CHOSE TO WAIT WITH SHADOWS OF GLOOM..

THOSE WHO DARE NOT SPEAK

THERE WAS A TIME WHEN I BELIEVED IN SOMETHING..

BACK THEN I WAS NAIVE AND INNOCENT..

I BELIEVED IN THE GOODNESS OF EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING..

TILL THAT FAITHFUL NIGHT, WHEN ALL OF THAT CHANGED..

I DUG DEEP TO UNDERSTAND..

I STRUGGLED IN SILENCE, A PRISONER OF PAIN..

I DREAD THE NIGHTS WHEN THE SHADOWS WOULD COME AND HAVE ME..

THE THREAT OF EACH SUNSET GETS SO REAL BY THE MINUTE..

I THOUGHT OF A PLACE WHERE I COULD BE HAPPY..

I MAKE BELIEVE EACH TIME DEPRESSION TAKES ME..

THE PAINFUL TRUTH THAT AWAKES ME..

THE SADNESS OF THE HOPELESSNESS ..

PITY IS ALL THAT I FELT, I CRIED ALONE..

SCREAMED WITHIN MY SELF..

I DONT WANT TO MOVE ON, THERE’S NO TOMORROW FOR ME..

I WAS STUCK IN THE NIGHT OF NEVERENDING DARKNESS..

THE LIGHT IS GONE AND ALONE WITH THE SHADOWS OF MY MORBID FAITH..

NO ONE DARED KNOW, NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND, NO ONE WILL LOVE ME, I HEARED THEM SAY..

IF I TELL, MY LIFE WOULD BE A LIVING HELL!

IF THEY KNEW THE THINGS I HIDE, I WOULD KNOW THE TRUTH..

I AM ALONE WHEN I WAS BORN AND ALL ALONE SHALL I GO..

I WON’T LET THEM DO ME ANYMORE..

HERE WITH THE VOICES IN MY HEAD I MAKE BELIEVE..

THAT THE BEST IS YET TO COME, AS I STEP CLOSER TO THE END OF THIS LEDGE..

I CLOSE MY EYES AND SEE MY DREAM, A FAMILY.

THEY WILL HOLD ME UNTIL I WON’T CRY NO MORE..

I WOULD FORGET AND MY EYES WILL DRY UP..

NO LONGER WILL I FEEL PAIN..

THE PLACE WHERE I HOPED TO BE WILL END WITH ME…

TODAY I’LL  PUT AN END TO A LIFE THAT MOCKED ME.

THE UNIVERSE WILL LAUGH AND THE BIRDS WILL SING..

THE NIGHTS WOULD END WITH EVERYTHING THE SAME..

I WOULD BE REMEMBERED AS A LUNATIC WHOM NO ONE UNDERSTOOD..

THE SHADOWS WILL KEEP WITHIN THEMSELVES THE TRUTH..

THEY’LL FIND A NEW INNOCENT, WHOM NO ONE WOULD BELIEVE..

SHE WILL TRY AND FIGHT, BUT WILL FAIL IN THE END,

CURSE THIS LIFE AND EVENTUALLY DIE OF A BROKEN SPIRIT.

UNTIL SHE PARTS FROM THIS WORLD WITH UNBEARABLE SUFFERING..

THE ANGELS WILL WEEP BUT I KNOW THEY’D UNDERSTAND..

I JUST WANTED TO BE IN THE PROMISE LAND..

BUT I KNOW WHAT I DID WILL MAKE THEM TURN ME AWAY..

SO I’LL DO WHAT I DO BEST..

MY DREAMS WILL TAKE ME TO A PLACE I WANTED..

THERE HAPPINESS WILL START WHEN I DREAM AGAIN.. 

PROMISE

THE LONG WALKS WILL TELL YOU, THAT THE WORLD IS NO LONGER SAFE..

IT WOULD ALMOST ALWAYS GIVE YOU SOMETHING TO DREAD, SOMEONE TO RUN FROM.

THE KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR IS NOWHERE IN SIGHT..

NO ONE CAN SAVE YOU..

IT TAKES SOME TIME FOR YOU TO REALIZE THAT THE STRUGGLE IS OVER..

YOUR BATTLES WITH THEM HAVE GIVEN YOU NOTHING BUT BRUISES..

YOU SMILE TO YOURSELF AND ADMIT YOUR DEFEAT..

YOU PRAY FOR A PASSING THAT WOULD BE PAINLESS..

OFCOURSE YOU DONT EXPECT THEM TO BE ANSWERED..

YOU WILL NEVER GO THE PREFERRED WAY..

HERE IN THIS ROOM WHILE YOU LIE AND AWAIT YOUR DEMISE,

YOU THINK OF SALVATION AND HOPE IN YOUR HEART THAT EVERYTHINGS TRUE..

THAT OUTSIDE THIS DYING BODY IS A PLACE THAT  YOU HOPED TO BE..

A PLACE WHERE ALL PAIN CAN BE FORGOTTEN..

NO LONGER WILL YOU RUN, NO LONGER WILL YOU BE AFRAID..

FOR EACH TEAR YOU HAVE SHED, A SMILE WOULD BE THE GIFT..

THAT PLACE WHERE ALL YOUR SUFFERINGS WOULD BE REWARDED, AND THE PROMISE TO BE EXALTED..