The state of the world is getting more and more horrifying…
I don’t know why but, I tend to slack off more..
There is no certain bounce in my step..
Everything seems to become a drag..
No more inner passion..
I guess me like everyone in this world has submitted to this
suffering and pain of existence..
We just exist.
It makes me sad when I come out of that state, every now and then.
But when I get to that hypnotic state everything turns out fine..
I have submitted 4 resumes in the past months.
I’m giving up on my so called dreams.
I’m tired of hustling.
From now on I’ll just submit to anything life will give me..
I’ll be full of gratitude and accept my fate as is..
One employer called me from a big reputable company,
I’m crossing my fingers on this one.
Last time I applied for a position, I got rejected..
I took it really hard and felt that they were prejudiced
towards me..
I felt that they were homophobic and that they thought of me to be gay.
I don’t know, may be it’s just me. I’m overly sensitive.
But at that time I felt like they were.
Maybe it’s just the interviewer. Not the company itself.
Maybe I took it hard just because I was over confident.
Because this is the only field I know I really am good at.
But I’ve grown as a person since then and that is why I’m going back.
I’ll get out more and try everything.
Take risks and learn from them.
It’s the only way for me to overcome everything in this life.
I have to not take life seriously and just be…
