My Impending Doom…
I don’t feel as good today.
Each day the numbness gets worst.
I don’t know who I am anymore, or
what I need to do with my life.
When I was young I had high hopes for myself.
What I could be and how wonderful it would be.
But I never become any of them.
What’s sad is the fact that I’m still here.
I tend to blame myself for being born.
I wanted so much to end this life..
I don’t want to fight anymore, it’s too much for me..
My mind is tired of all this bullshit I’m forced to take.
I want it all to end.
In want a fast easy death, no one will know.
You see I haven’t told anyone…
I’m nothing but a failure.
I could go on and on about opportunities that
didn’t come, or unfulfilled dreams.
But that won’t change anything, I’m a loser..
Nothing would change that.
They say people who commit suicide are selfish.
Maybe I am, infact I think I’m more than that.
Narcissistic, anti social, pathological liar I’m all these things..
I’m actually doing a service to the world by killing myself.
Who knows what I could do in the future when I totally flip.
I just can’t pretend anymore…
I don’t feel anything!
It’s like I don’t even exist!
I want to feel again!!!
I’m just tired of this…
